First and foremost I would like to say thank you for the blessings you gave me.
for they never turn their back on me,
for their unfailing support when I'm so down,
for always telling me to move on every time I fall down,
and for the unconditional love.
Thank you Lord for giving me such a wonderful blessing in my life.
I know, I made a mistake but thank you Lord for giving me the courage to face everything.
He is the best prize for all of my mistakes and failures.
I have a lot of friends but few I can really trust.
I'm afraid to trust Lord because I hate betrayal.
I know how it feels, it happens most of the time when I am too trustful.
To the people I trust most, Thank you so much for always listening.
To Angie, who always listen to me and to my advices.
No matter what I say, she never take it differently!
To bill, who always listen to me.
To David who always make me laugh.
To all my friends, thank you so much!
I don't want to carry my own chair Lord but I know when I say something I mean it and it is not for me but to the people who are important to me.
I hate the fact that I can give advice to my friends and they take it wholeheartedly but the one I love most taught I was giving a bad reactions.
Lord, I am not! Believe me, I am just trying to make it simple and coz i know every problem there is a solution. I think Lord, it is his way of saying back off. That is why i'm doing myself a favor now.
Lord, I know I have been so bad.
I am a one tough bitch Lord
But now, I am a heartless bitch!
I have hurt a lot of people Lord and I am so sorry for that.
and I promise, before this months end, I would like to say sorry to them.
I don't want to question you Lord
But why is that when I try to make my path straight,
I always end up crying!
Would I better stay as bitch to avoid being hurt?
I made a big mistake, I hurt the person who love me most and now
I end up crying alone! But this is not the end Lord, this will be the beginning of a new battle. I will never stop fighting and if ever I lost the fight, I will just stand up and fight some more until I win.
hey, this is not a suicide letter or a dying prayer ok!
Trust me, i just want to pour out all my feelings until its finally gone!